Not Afraid to Trust

by Lee Kai Ling 

This world is so vast; this earth is marked by diversity and its inhabitants differ in beliefs. Once again, another classmate comes along with the ‘Big Questions of Life’.

What do we live for? What’s the purpose of life?
Can Christianity answer all questions?
Are miracles for real?
Do we look to religion just because we are weak and need something to depend and place our hopes on?

Sometimes, they don’t bombard with questions. They hurl a statement in my face. Christianity is a blind faith, a figment of imagination. I swallow them in, all of them. Many a time, in order to prove my faith, I find myself embarking on this route where I choose to rationalize, painstakingly making use of all the logical arguments in my head. Yet these extensive table discussions and debates leave us without any conclusion and only more confusion.

Science always tells us that the truth lies in concrete proof and evidence. 

Even so, we know well that science does not possess all the answers to man’s endless queries, humanity’s pursuit of perfection and the establishment of a utopian, ideal society will never come to fruition. The iniquities that plague us, our weaknesses and sins cannot 


be fully reconciled by whatever theories men come up with. 

As I constantly dwell in finding the answers and rationalizing on my own, I often find myself arriving at a dead end. While I wallow in self-pity and decide to cast those troubling thoughts aside, Isaiah 55:8-9 would always surface in my chaotic mind. 

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.” 

God knows what is best for His children and His ways are definitely not our way. I realized that my attempt to wholly understand the profound questions of life is so limited by my finite human capacity. 

I learned to humble myself and allow God’s sovereign hand to lead me as I walk through life’s patchy road. 

Late one evening, my friends and I were strolling out of the school 


gates. The area was almost pitched dark, with just a few dim lamps along the walkway. Everyone around me seemed a little anxious and uneasy, but I was not. I looked up into the measureless sky and amidst the darkness I saw a lone star glittering so brightly, with the contrasting blanket of black augmenting its light. A familiar sense of comfort surrounded me and I experienced a peaceful calm. It was as though the star signified the Lord’s omnipresence and His guiding hand in my life. 

Who am I, really, when compared to the Almighty? I am so small and my knowledge so limited and inadequate. 

When there are no answers let us look to Jesus the Author and Finisher of our faith who has promised to lead us besides ‘still water and restore our souls (Psalm 23)’. Instead of questioning, “Why did such a thing happen to me?” consider Jesus who ‘endured such contradiction of sinners against Himself’ and do not be ‘wearied and faint in your mind.’(Hebrews 12:3) And as your pain is gradually easing, you will find a greater reason to live your life victorious through all the tears. God is too wise to be mistaken, too loving to be unkind. 

So when we don’t understand, when we can’t see His plan or trace His hand, we just have to trust His loving heart. 

(Edelweiss Issue 9: February 2013)